Every day of your high-tech career, unless you
are hopelessly embedded in a never-varying position, there will
be a certain amount of fear involved. While it may
not be as frightening as some of the other fears in your life,
there can be the fear of failure; fear of losing your job; your
livelihood; your career. Sometimes, fear such as this can be even
more oppressive, as there is no definite end to the pressure. It
simply ebbs and flows from day-to-day and week-to-week.
Living with career fear
Even after 20 years of working in high-tech, I still enter every appointment
with a bit of trepidation. Will I be up to today's challenge? Do I know what
I need to know? Will this be a day when the technology wins? Some days are
worse than others, especially after a difficult call. Still, in the end,
I have to constantly remind myself that I have the tools I need to do the
The first and most important thing to remember is it is not brain surgery.
No one is going to die. Life may not be easy, data may be destroyed, but
you will not be responsible for someone's death. Face it, losing your job
is trivial compared to that.
Sometimes, even when you try to do your best, there will be times when the
combination of bad hardware, software, planning or more will combine into
unsolvable problems; mountains that can only be gone around, not over or
through. It can be frightening, discouraging, even angering when this happens,
but solutions will be found.
Sometimes clients can be quite unforgiving of these failures, but if you are
like me, your own recriminations and blame are far more damaging. Kicking yourself
over mistakes made and opportunities missed only causes more, and tougher,
troubles down the road.
Getting back on the horse
Unless you suddenly decide to change your career, you'll still have to face
the next call, the next project. There is nothing to do, but start. Of course,
you'll already be smarter then you were before. You did learn something from
your failure, right? Even if you only learned what you didn't know, you learned
If you can, start with a small task that has a good chance of success. Completing
such a task lets you know that everything has not gone to pot, just one specific
If you're in the midst of a large project, find one small, particular task
to complete within the bigger project. The results are the same. You continue
on your work while regaining some small degree of confidence.
There are several things I do to try and keep my ever-present "worrier" in
check when I am working:
First, do no harm
It is always my most basic goal to leave no client worse off than when I
arrived. Even if I can't solve a problem entirely, the client should still
remain somewhat productive. By always working with this in mind, I can
control my worries, even if I need to do more research before I can solve
the problem entirely. Leaving a client with a nonfunctioning computer dramatically
increases the sense of failure and can cloud your thinking during the call.
If I am going to be without Internet access at a client site, over preparing
might involve printing up helpful technotes or other files to bring with
me. Of course, having access to the Internet simply makes your life easier.
Working on your own is much less stressful when you know you have thousands
of people to turn to for help at the touch of a mouse. I also try to keep
the latest software tools in my bag, including antivirus programs, disk
repair software and more.
I have developed a series of friends over the years that can help me out
when I am stumped or merely offer a consensus opinion that I am on the
right track.Facing the daily tasks of a complex high-tech career is enough
to make anyone doubt their abilities, and doubt breeds fear. Trying to
manage all the permutations of hardware, software and people can seem impossible
on even the best days. Yet you can, and must, face your fears if you hope
to have a successful high-tech career. In fact, how you deal with your
fears can be one of the most important factors in defining your future
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